Life Goes On

 I was cranky when I left work a little before 2 pm. I must have been tired because I kept getting drowsy on the bus. I here around 3 pm.

I downloaded a few more songs while I snacked on some ham. I stared up the lamb, thinking it was close to being a stew. After 4 I walked own to Dollar General for frozen peas and Coke Zero.

There was a bit more playing with the music and email. A lot of deleting with the email. What I feel needs to read is piling up. How did I manage 1500+ a day?

I forgot to mention that a new place opened downtown Muncie for breakfast, The Birddog Cafe. Homemade bagels, and there were brownies. I had a bagel yesterday and the brownie today. They both left my mouth with happy feet. Wonderful stuff. 

I got blog posts done. All of it from the Clippings app. Firefox is very balky of late.

It is 9:30, and I want to get some sleep. Not enough done, again.

A thought came to me yesterday that I want to report. I had never wondered about women I never had.

 

If there was one that got away, she never came to mind. No one I pine for. Guina comes closest. I wrote her about a month back, have heard nothing, and there goes another who wants nothing to do with me.

 I remember years ago coming to the realization that a few women I had known and had gotten away from me had left me better off. Things could have been far worse for me. But that was different from yesterday's question. No, with me, it is the ones I was involved with whom I let get away. Which is more along the lines of the list I came up in prison of women I should have married. I hope the women in my life got as much from knowing me as I did from them. I would like to think I gave as good as I got, but I doubt that is true. I also wrote KA about a month ago, and I know where I stand with her, too. I cannot blame them, so I do not. 

Maybe if there were someone I was carrying a torch for, my heart would feel differently. Maybe celibacy would lose its charms. And maybe it would still have its charms, because life just goes on, and I really do not time or space for a relationship.

 

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