Manic?

 EW wrote me; said I was being manic.I do not feel manic. I wrote her a 6 page response and only towards the end did I realize she referred to my wanting an apartment,to get myself into home confinement. This place is more stressful than was Fort Dix FCI. I am relying on people who cannot distinguish the City of Marion from the County of Marion. I am not here to get high - even though someone offered to sell me drugs, even though we have people so stoned they cannot keep up their heads. I'm not trying to abuse my time outside of the halfway house. I had a 5 hour pass and was back in 2. The cigarette smoke is fierce most of the time,but I'm not smoking. All I want is what I need to find and get a job and get back to being a productive citizen and making up for my crimes. I'm not sure this place wants the same things I do.

Yestrday, I got credit for programming. Someone donated clothes. Going down and looking over the clothes got me credit for programming. Clothes making the man so as to improve his self-esteem leading to les of a chance of recidivism - that's why there ws a pragramming credit. I got a cool London Fog knock-off of an overcoat and two pairs of dress pants. EW wants me to take allthe programming possible. I wonder aobut her reaction to this kind of programming.

She also thinks I need AA. I don't feel the need. She thinks I'm going back running with the Muncie crackheads. My thinking is I did that and now I've moved on.

All I can do is hope I'm going in the direction God wants. I'm praying to get out of here with my sanity intact.

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5/26/21

[I'm not so keen about leaving here on 7/3/2021 after seeing the amount of Muncie rentals.]